The count down for sleeps is done so a good bye to you my good friends is what I set out to do. I have had so much support that I don't feel like I am really leaving. Thank you.
Past volunteers report a very common trend. They say it is a normal to start with excitement that then crashes and becomes home sickness. This then settles into feeling content. I am at the excited stage (and very nervous stage today).
Growing up, I often wanted to just run away. This trip is my run away. A little more controlled than a hankie on a twig dream; (I'm caring about 100lbs of goods). My past run away fantasy was to go to California and live on the beach. I've never been to California but I had figured that with time, I could walk my way there. Well, today I'm happy I didn't run away, with a bit of patience, I still get to set off to a new life experience by the ocean.
The running away was to be by the ocean, but it was also about is leaving behind stuff. The stuff is an accumulation of routine, other people's agenda, and things that have become comfortable but no longer valuable. This stuff fills life so there is no room to accept the newness of life. So in keeping with my dream of the hankie and twig, I hope to be able to keep life simple.
I am very lucky that home is still here and will carry on being here. My goal will be to bring the simple life, that has room for newness, back home in a year. Because the stuff I leave behind is only part of the story, my running away is temporary. I am also leaving the people I love. To this I know I am not really gone, my love is still present.
I will be back next year.
Free for newness and blessed with my past I am ready.
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